Out of Focus

2020 update - I don't even remember writing most of this!

This morning the pastor preached out of 1 John. I was trying to take good notes on the different ways to be sure you are saved because that is a hot topic in the prayer room often when people question if they are really saved.  In the midst of all of the preaching I heard Gods sweet whisper and see this image of the words GENISIS 28. Now... I am NOT a bible scholar so I had no clue what was in Genesis 28 out of the top of my head and wondered if it had anything to do with what pastor was saying but I just made a mental note and tried to keep listening. Again GENISIS 28. Uh....O.k. God I'll check it out later.


GENISIS 28

“O.K. I PROMISE I will look at this after church”

GENISIS 28

“Pastor is preaching, isn’t it disrespectful to be flippin around?”

GENISIS 28

“it can’t wait 40 minutes?”

GENISIS 28

Me laughing “o.k., I’m not trying to be disobedient, it’s just the timing …”


So there I went racing to Genesis 28 speed reading….


“yah uh huh Isaac blessed Jacob…yah yah o.k. don’t marry Canaanite woman yah go to Pada what-ah?..... I don’t like when I can’t pronounce these words....oh wait SIDETRACK!  o.k. where was I ... oh yah so Issac, Jacob, no Cannanites wives…. Go to Betheul…..is that pronounced like Samuel? …uhg…sidetrack….o.k. get a wife from Uncle Laban…fruitful, multiply, blessings to you and descendants, inherit land…….. OK GOD I got nothing!!.... o.k. I’m going to keep reading but I can hear pastor talking and I’m so distracted…… O.k……so God bless you.. .wait already read that… uhg…so Jacob went away to Padawhatever to his moms brother o.k. got it…. Ok so Esau takes another wife….man this old testament multiple wives things always get’s me and….UGH SIDE TRACK!! Ok…. So is this after Jacob stole the blessing? I can’t believe his mom asked him to lie, man I ain’t lying for anyone! I don’t care who they are! When people ask you to lie for them they are asking you to sin and…..UHG SIDETRACK!!! CONSENTRATE!! OK. So yah yah uh huh Esau knew parents didn’t want Cannanite daughter-in-laws so he goes out and gets ANOTHER WIFE….I’m sure that didn’t bother him! FOCUS SHARON!! O.K. so new wife from someone in family and two others names I can’t pronounce…..(FOCUS)


Reading reading…o.k. so Jacob comes to some place, not sure where because it just says a certain place… probably another name I can’t pronounce!.....then God gave him a dream…uh huh…ladder (OH SERIOUSLY? CUZ YOU KNOW FATHER THE WHOLE SIDEWAYS LADDER THING YOU GAVE ME ALL THOSE YEARS AGO, BUT THEN IT WAS NOT A LADDER IT WAS A LETTER AND THEN THE WHOLE LETTER THING & REVELATION OF THE LETTER……O.K. NOT RIGHT NOW?...O.K. ..O.K. I’LL KEEP READING…UGH OFF FOCUS!! ) Deep breath o.k. so dream, ladder reached heavens, angels of God going up and down….ahh what a pretty image….awww sweet…but are they walking up and down or flying cuz if I was an angel I’d use my wings, no more walking 4sho! FOCUS SHARON!!


…o.k. oh and there is God above it and now he’s talking……. “I am the LORD God of Abraham …yah uh huh lands, descendants, dust of earth, west, east, north…yah all directions I get it what’s the point? ……”BEHOLD , I AM WITH YOU AND WILL KEEP YOU WHEREVER YOU GO, AND WILL BRING YOU BACK TO THIS LAND, FOR I WILL NOT LEAVE YOU UNTIL I HAVE DONE WHAT I HAVE SPOKE TO YOU”

…me….sighing…. Father I know this, but why do I act like I don’t believe it? I have faith it is true, but sometimes I wonder why I don’t show that. I need help showing I believe it.

GENESIS 28

Oh…ok. There’s more..o.k.


o.k. keep reading….. Jacob wakes up, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I did not know it”…..Yah I totally get that one…o.k. keep reading… “How awesome is this place..” hmm like Brawley? Oh o.k. house of God, gate of heaven..KEEP READING!...


Jacob wakes up early…..uhg you know I need to start getting up early, everyone in the Bible seems to be getting up early, I mean didn’t people just want a lazy day now and…..OH O.K. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!


…takes stone, pillar, poured oil…..called it Bethel but was Luz…. Made vow…“If God will be with me, and keep me in this way that I am going, and give me bread to eat and clothing to put on, so that I come back to my father’s house in peace, then the LORD shall be my God. And this stone which I have set as a pillar shall be God’s house, and of all that You give me I will surely give a tenth to You.”

Wait….let me read that again…….. Uhm….so yah I get it….Genisis 28, You just gave me a prayer. Ahhhh….this is why I give you praise..You are just so marvelous! Thank you Father, you know what I need, you know when I need it and I’m so sorry it takes you telling me this way.  THANK YOU FATHER!!! Because you are with me, and keep me in this way that I am going, and give me bread to eat and clothing to put on, so that I come back to my fathers house in peace, then LORD you are my God and this stone which I set as a pillar shall be YOUR HOUSE and of all that YOU give me I will surely give a tenth to you!”

He knew I was waiting on Him for answers. He chose when, where and how to give it to me. I have to fight so hard to listen while filtering through my own mind. His words are so easy, so simple, so uncomplicated yet we are so quick to make it so complex.

Thank You Father, oh and by the way…. Can you help me focus? Grately appreciated…o.k. now back to Pastors preaching!