About a dozen years ago I had an abnormal growth removed from my right breast. It made me think of Chandler from Friends and his "nubbin"!
Someone told me they had just gone through a biopsy and that they were scared. As a believer in the teaching of the Holy Bible, she said " I know we are not supposed to be scared but I was".
Someone told me they had just gone through a biopsy and that they were scared. As a believer in the teaching of the Holy Bible, she said " I know we are not supposed to be scared but I was".
People keep telling me not to worry or be scared about what the doctors might find. I don't know how many other ways to say I really truly am not. I have NO REASON to lie about this. I used to conceal my true thoughts and feelings before coming to Christ. Now, unless I am not even aware of them, I don't really hide my emotions. It's too much work! I spent years being deceptive by putting my best face on and pretending all was peachy. No more. This is me and I am much better at being real than wasting time and energy on pretending. Disclaimer here - there is actually one area of my life that, if shared, would cause someone else pain. So that IS a closed topic.
Back to my first rodeo. I had this growth for a long time, but I never thought much about it. I was in for a regular exam and there was no hiding it from the doctor who ordered it's removal. I was married at the time and don't even remember telling my ex about the surgery. I drove myself to the hospital and then home. I wasn't upset. I just remember being annoyed that I couldn't find parking!
I remember laying in the room before surgery when they came in with a local anesthetic. It was at that point that I was thought "oh wow they are about to stick that thing in my chest and cut into one of my girls!". I am the kind of person who does not think about a scary roller coaster ride until the safety restraints are being locked down! This trait is either a gift from God or I am truly missing some marbles! My friends would attest to the latter.
The biopsy revealed nothing, and I have not thought about it much since then.
Back to my first rodeo. I had this growth for a long time, but I never thought much about it. I was in for a regular exam and there was no hiding it from the doctor who ordered it's removal. I was married at the time and don't even remember telling my ex about the surgery. I drove myself to the hospital and then home. I wasn't upset. I just remember being annoyed that I couldn't find parking!
The biopsy revealed nothing, and I have not thought about it much since then.
So in my current rodeo, I am not scared. If anything, I am only frustrated with medical insurance delaying approval for the biopsy. The length of time it seems to be taking, I might be better off going to medical school and performing this myself!
I would rather NOT have my eyelid sliced open as they so casually described the outpatient biopsy, but I really wish it would happen already. "Heals up nicely" says my Dr.
Anyhow this rodeo is proving much more trying, but I am not scared. I better get the chaps ready though.
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In 2003 I was told of a growth on my liver. I decided to not go through the biopsy. After a lot of struggle and fighting insurance companies and retirement benefit authorities (with another picture showing the lesion growing) I made it to another doctor and got the referral to get another CT scan. Lo and behold it was not there.
ReplyDeleteYes I prayed and incorrectly at times. I left it in the Lord's hands. The doctor was angry thinking I was trying to scam him and ejected me from his office. What other conclusion could I have but GOD HEALED ME!!! Supporting you in whatever path you take. Rix