Since I asked the question, I'll ask it.
What is my life verse and why?
The first time I voluntarily walked in to a church (with my whole heart) was in Sept 2007. It was a week after seperating from the man I had been with for 17 years, half of my life. I had only learned one verse: Isaiah 26:3
Lord you give perfect peace to those who keep their pupose firm and put their trust in you.
That scripture was on a card in those words, so there is no reference for the translatiion, but anyhow that is how I learned it.
I am standing at the back of a youth service ( my friend was a youth pastor there) and the music was incredibly loud and I had no idea what was going on (it was an alter call). The Pastor leaned over to my friend and as clear as if they were standing next to me in a perfectly quiet room, I heard the pastor ask "what is your friends name?" My friend responded "Sharon". The Pastor said, "Bring Sharon up here".............
MIND YOU THIS WAS ACROSS A CROWDED ROOM WITH MUSIC BLASTING ......It was like God turned off everything else in the world to let me know YES YOU REALLY HEARD THAT...
Then I saw my friend look up at me and motion for me to come and I was like "he can't be meaning me, I didn't really just hear what I heard".
But it was real and the next thing I knew he was coming for me and took me to the front and then...left me there...
It was only a matter of a minute before I was weeping, on my knees pleading to God. There were people all around, but I was very much by myself with God. My friend and the Pastor were praying over me but I am not sure what they were saying. I just remember asking God to make all the chaos in my life stop. I was hurting, I was in pain. I was not in that service, my mind was a million miles away. Although I could hear the prayer, I was talking to God and just wanting something other than the pain I was experiencing because my husband had cheated on me. I started crying and I told God "I WILL DO WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO DO FROM THIS POINT FORWARD, JUST PLEASE MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY! I GIVE EVERYTHING I HAVE TO YOU, I'M DONE!" I remember saying I would go to the hottest place on earth and give up everything just to have God. I said I didn't even care if He fix my problems, I just wanted HIM! (God not the husband)
I didn't realize what I was doing, surrendering to God and what it meant. I didn't know what would come. Through tears I submitted to the will of God and chose at that moment to stop doing it my way. I gave all of me, to God. I immediatly started repeating Isaiah 26:3 and after a few minutes I was smiling and I just kept saying "perfect peace, perfect peace". I must have said it a hundred times at least.
Did God turn back time for me? No.
Did God change my situation? No.
God did however, change ME!
From that day forward, I would never again be who I was. It has been a year and a half since that time and I really wish I had blogged every even since that first day, but it is what it is and although I may not even continue to blog here, I have amazing testimonies of what has become of a life of someone who at one point thought I had all my stuff together!
I live now, to serve God and fullfill his will for my life. I mess up daily, but I still strive to finish the race he set for me.
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